Lately I’ve been in a weird head space. I’m not sure if it’s from what's going on in my personal world or the horrors of current America, but I just need to get some things off my chest...
I need help. Not in the ‘involuntarily committed to a psych ward’ kind, but in the ‘I can't do this on my own’ kind. Coming from Ms. Independent, this sucks to admit.
2017 has been a huge slap in the face of how inconsistent I am. There’s only 4 months left and I have yet to complete over half of the things on that list, like completing a 5k (though I abhor running) to attending Art Basel.
I’m traveling out of the country in less than 4 weeks with an ex that I barely get along with. I’m sure we’ll have a great time when we’re not driving each other crazy..
This whole “celebrity news” industry makes me sick. Regardless of free speech, there’s a thing called privacy and respect. We are so two-faced, but will be the first to claim #1 fan. Yall gonna learn to stop trying these celebs like they’re not real people...
Then this current presidency is absolute foolery. Never mind the “work” that they’re “doing”, why is it that they can’t keep their staff? Everyone knows high turnover is a sign of poor leadership. If there was any faith in the Trump Administration, that’s out the door now..
Another thing I’m sick of: racism. I’m not gonna give another history lesson or monologue on why and how the “white man is bringing us down.” We all have eyes, so obviously we can see it for ourselves without a narrator, but I wonder if black folks realize how they contradict themselves. I understand and definitely agree that inequality is very present and we deserve our rights, but how can we demand both inclusion and exclusion? We want to have the same rights and access to everything white people do, but look at someone sideways when they want to model our culture. Such as wanting long, straight, manageable hair, but shaming others for wearing door-knocker earrings. That doesn’t even make sense. I know we’ve been hurt, but we gotta simmer down long enough to decide what we truly want. If is true inclusion, we have to be willing to share just like we’re demanding white folks to do so. If we want to maintain exclusivity in everything black culture to “Blacks Only”, be prepared to enjoy and suffer the results. Just pick a side, because y’all confusing everyone.
I wish we all could just relax for a while. I wish I was better.
I know we’re all riding different waves, but I can’t wait until this one breaks.
KB + Co.